One Change About to Occur

"You don't know what you want."  I've been told that on occasion.  Truth is, I've been indecisive at times.  What to eat?  What to wear?  Certain things day to day get me worked up, because I can't decide.  I just can't.  Today is different.  Not too long ago, I said I would be making some changes.  One of them was going to involve hurt feelings.

It's not because I'm going to be insensitive.  Sadness is going to occur for a little while, but this decision has to be made.  Sometimes there are moments that occur that remind one what they actually don't want out of life.  One of those moments occurred ten days ago.  Now I am sitting here typing this entry as I try to wake up so I can get some needed business taken care of beforehand.

I told a friend last night that I would be nervous as things draw near.  That was no lie.  Will there be a mutual understanding?  Or will emotions fly all over the place.  I don't know yet.  It's an area in life I'm not experienced with yet.  I will be in a matter of hours.  Right now, I just need to get some things done in order to pass the time.  When all is said and done, I will make sure I have a nice big dinner.  What I'll eat will depend on how this face to face moment goes.

Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.  Not that it will be that bad, but I'm not expecting a walk in the park on this one.