Bad Vibes On the Horizon.

Let's start off on a good note, shall we?  Since I mentioned food choices last time, I figured it would be appropriate by talking about mine.

Daily Asterisk: February 28, 2013 from Thomas Holbrook II on Vimeo.

I made it to work last night, and the shift started as it normally would.  I brought two bottles of water up to the front end like I always did.  Upon discovery that we had no trash bags for trash, I went to the back to grab some.

From there, things went as normal for a bit.  I took care of trash on one side of the front end as well as hangers.  At some point, the other front end person for the night was also taking care of trash and hangers.

It was when I got to the sweeping that things turned interesting in a hurry.

On May 22, 2012, I wrote an entry about memories and lessons.  In that post, I mentioned somebody who vicariously lives through other people.  I met them in 2010, and quickly discovered how they had this ability to draw people into their own madness.

There's a reason why it's called the cult of personality.

 In 2011, I severed ties with them and decided to move on with my life.  2012 was an amazing year.  I had a girlfriend for four months, ran for political office (and got over 10,000 votes), and had a good time with my room mate.

As it turned out, my instincts towards the end of the year was correct.

2012 wasn't the end, but the beginning of something interesting.  Have you ever had the feeling that something was coming, that it was on the horizon, and that it would be prudent to prepare for it?  If that moment last night at work was any indication, something interesting is on the horizon.

The very person who vicariously lives through other people made a brief appearance.

They were headed towards the door in their uniform.  We both looked at one another, I looked back at them, and they glared at me for a brief moment.  I felt jolted for a moment.

Suffice it to say they are no longer my biggest fan.

Truth be told, they can remain mad at me all they want.  An understanding has been reached.

I'm my own person and will no longer be manipulated or molded by them or anyone else.

With that in mind, I'll be getting some dinner and going to sleep.  May the rest of the day involve more and more melting snow.

Memories Going through My Head

Work was interesting.  Despite being short handed on the front end, we were able to get our stuff done.  It helps that there's not much customer traffic at the moment due to winter break.  Towards the end of my shift, something began to happen.

I began replaying some moments in my mind.

Towards the end of the month, it will be a year since I experienced a moment that would change my life.  It was that moment that defied my stance for several years.  That defiance made me truly happy.

For many years, I never ever thought I would have a girlfriend.  It just didn't seem to be in the cards for me.

In 2012, things changed.  I would be introduced by somebody else, and from there, things happened.  The relationship would end after four months.

She wants to eventually start a family.  Being a father is not in the cards for me as I don't have the patience for it.

Now that I'm sitting here writing this entry, more memories of the past are going through my head.

Memories of falling for someone and writing a three page letter that never reached them.  The poor lady always kept getting sick or injured each semester at college.  I also have memories of attempting to date other people only to come up short.

I also have a recent memory.  It happened towards the end of last year.  For the longest time, I wanted to write some status update on Facebook that goes something like this:

"That moment when you realize you've been blocked and that it doesn't really matter."

 Perhaps it was something I said via chat.  Perhaps it was something that I had shared and/or wrote regarding current events.  It doesn't matter really.  All that matters is that I was told by the individual in question through their actions that they don't want to associate with me, and they have a right to do so.

Facebook is a great medium of communication, but it's not my entire life.  Whenever somebody, whether it's through their words or actions, screams, "LEAVE ME ALONE!," I simply comply.

What I seem to be looking for in those memories are life lessons to remember.  I find only one.

Take control of your own life and own destiny before a group of people decides how you should conduct your own affairs.

I know I said that yesterday.  I simply decided to apply it to my own life today.  Things are changing, because we all live in interesting times.  Something very important and very interesting is on the horizon, so the prudent thing for me to do is to be prepared.

It's time for me to seize the day and determine my own fate.